Why I think I have ADDS. And, what I make of it.

Anything that requires my mind to stay on it for more than 2 minutes -and is not constantly providing new (interesting) information or (interesting) challenges - eventually loses my attention. Or, I stop being attentive, that is :P.

The ADD Syndrome - as I call it - in me, has been a part of me since I was playing in a puddle of mud. It lasted through school, where initially I used to be the highly distracted kid who used to disturb benchmates in junior school, which has received special mention in all the report cards without exception. And, was asked to go wash my face in high school by one teacher especially. Then I went to college, I stopped being embarrassed by it. Shamelessly - hopefully without my mouth wide open - I used to doze in the first bench. I thought I should deal with this problem, and urged my benchmates * to shift to the last bench. Nope. They wouldn't hear of it. So I slept on. Was named Tapas Queen by a slightly strict teacher. That stuck on, and I kinda liked that image :P

Now in grad school I don't feel so drowsy so much. Its not bcos classes here are better than in India, the percentage - I think - has remained the same, I sleep in one out of 3 classes here, back home it was 2-3 out of 6-7. I don't think that I'll even try to change that.

Coming back to the ADD Syndrome, things which mesmerize me and have my full attention are Kung Fu, Hip-Hop / Break dancing, well made movies, and certain shows like Derren Brown's, FRIENDS, SATC, House, and the Looney Tunes show! Whose line is it anyway and other things are so off in the past I've forgotten them! So... my conclusion is, that I've to engage in something that is not only mentally but physically challenging/engaging as well. The closest matche to that is Kung Fu. I love it. I've even joined classes here (Wing Chun Kung Fu, not the Shoalin that I wanted.. but does fine for now), which I've stopped attending past 3 wks bcos of grad school pressure :( . I've no clue how to go about this. But, I think a healthy dose of all kinds of activies, like science, kung fu/sport, dance/music, going out a lot :P, and good reads with a bout of healthy interaction between quite a few people will do me a world of good.

* Only 3 gals in class back in undergrad. The consequences it led to sometimes, made me want to rip somebody's hair off. One of the chief probs was, I couldn't sit in the last bench as I couldn't sit alone - too boring. The 2 other, apparently kuDmi (paDAku; studious - not in a good way) gals dint want to sit in the last bench. The guys wouldnt sit with me bcos they'd get teased terribly. Several used to say an innocent "Hi" initially in class and got royally leg-pulled, ob they stopped even talking to me after that.